Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Weakness

Adjustment better... hormones stable... life somewhat normal and I am feeling pretty OK.  Almost like other people might feel, at least I think that might be the case. 

However, last week was a very stressful week.  Some good stress, more bad stress, some personal disappointment, and a lot of busy days made my life a little hectic.  With the craziness I haven't been taking as good of care of myself as I should be, as I normally do.  I have been a bit down.  And I have woken with several really bad headaches.

Thankfully, these headaches didn't last all day as they would have, but I find myself watching me from the outside thinking:  Is she really so weak that a few days of blues, or a few things of stress that ultimately she can not change will cause her to physically react?  Why would my weakness manifest itself into pain in my head.  Have I somehow directed it there?

I am not sure whats up with that.  Its mostly a passing thought, but I am wonder how its all connected.

So whats my overall mood:  So very thankful for my loving friends and family.  Frustrated with several disappointments the past week brought, and worried about several family members and their current situations.  And tired... very very tired.  Still blue.  But not in pain every day. Yay!