ugh

I am so down today.  I am very tired and blue.  I will see my doctor next week- I couldn't bear to make arrangements on the last week of summer farming the kiddos out.  But I am just not feeling well and so tired of not feeling well.  I want to just feel better right now.  Or as my two year old often yells at me:  right this minute!  We are working on being kind in our home....

I have some fun creative plans that involve fruit- so I plan on working through my blues with colors of peach.  That will help, I am sure of it!

Didn't Wait

After a  very bad weekend following a really bad week and then heading into another rotten week, I decided not to wait.  I called the doc and adjusted some meds with an appointment to go in and see her in about a month.  I just did it.  No humming or hawwing.  No cold feet.  I called.

These headaches are controlling my life.  I am sure life will get better as routines and schedules normalize, but its not fair to my family for me to wait.  Its not fair to me to wait.  I am trying to be a better  wife and mother.  This hopefully will help me.

waiting for schedules....

Its been a while since I have posted.  I have considered deleting this blog-- or just making it private to only my eyes.  Haven't decided its future.

Its been a tough summer for me physically.  Not too bad considering the cooler temps we have had here in the Portland Area- only a few days over 80, while there are people DIEING from heat in the rest of the nation.  We still pack and carry around our hoodie's just in case.  Only in Oregon I guess.  But I haven't been well.  I am sick of it.  The kids are ready for school to start, but Oregon starts the day after Labor Day-- this is to accommodate all the farming folk.  I say that a roll my eyes a bit...

I haven't been able to get my exercise in.  I am not exercising, so I don't feel well.  I don't feel well, so I don't exercise.  What a conflict.  I have an amazing exercise group that I join three days a week right after I drop the kiddo's off at school.  The toddler gets to play with the other kids and us Mom's keep an eye out on the group as they go from one end of the church gym to the other(usually in a herd-like fashion).  For whatever reason I haven't been able to get my booty over there this summer.  I am definitely up and at 'em at  8:30 AM, but not able to get out the door.  I have gone running a few times, and I have found running in the morning is much more pleasant than running in the evening.  Problem is I don't feel so good in the morning(because i haven't been exercising perhaps), and unless I have a buddy I am meeting up with, I can't seem to make myself go on my own.  Lame.  I know.

So, while I want to run into the doc, I am hesitant.  I know come September schedules will be back to normal.  It will be busy with a boy in soccer, a girl in scouts and dance, and my ever busy toddler, hopefully in a dance or swim class herself.  BUT, I will have more structure to my time and will be able to count on several actions that will help me out.  I will hold on until then.  So... until then.... wish me luck!